Anxiety at first worrying if ICD would go off & shock me, but that stopped after a few weeks. Emotionally I feel very flat. I even feel a real heaviness in my mind. I have the odd cry about things, but it’s quickly over. Is that depression? I haven’t really talked about it to anyone. I have said how worried I was about ICD & I was reassured the likelihood it would be needed was very low with the amount of medication I was taking and I felt less worried about it. I have mentioned how flat and tired I feel to GP, with no real response. Right from the start when I thought about what happened to me I thought well that was an easy way to go and it didnt really worry me that much.They see me smiling at them and working and getting on with life but…